Monday, August 17, 2009


I have a lot of things going on with me right now. I haven't made a post since July. Why? Eh, I'm not sure. I have intended to sit down and do it, but then something would always happen. Usually I was just exhausted. Sometimes just not feeling very well - been happening a lot lately. An unexpected trip out of town. And just LOTS of soul searching.

Let me start off with the unexpected trip. I received a phone call from my dad at 8:30 a.m. Sunday, July 5 informing me that my grandmother had passed away in the middle of the night. I'm SO thankful that we made the trip out this past Spring to visit and that she was able to see the kids for the first, and only, time. I loved that they brought a smile to her face. This wasn't an unexpected phone call, but a sad one nonetheless.

Funny though, I haven't cried once about it. I think my initial reaction was to cry, but I went into flight/trip planning mode and pushed the reason out of my mind so that I could find a flight. My husband was SO understanding. He was out of town for work and I got myself and my two toddlers packed and flights arranged from AK to FL in a few hours and was home less than 24 hours after the phone call. I'm so glad that I could be there for my dad and it was great to have that time with family.

Take time to learn from your elders, ask questions. You never know when they won't be able to answer you any longer. I think the reason I haven't cried since is because my perspective changed. While I miss her on this earth, I know that she is happy, healthy and square dancing with Papa in Heaven. I know I will see her again one day.

As for not feeling very well - I've been sick pretty much all summer. Nothing major and nothing that anyone else saw really, except for my husband, but not doing well. On our 7th anniversary (Aug 10) we had to come home early from out date b/c I was sick. I got scared enough to call the Dr and luckily she had a last minute cancellation right before I called. Ok, so LUCK had NOTHING to do with it. It was a complete GOD thing. I went in and she referred me to the general surgeon on the island.

He wanted to see me that day, but it was too nice of a day and we already had plans to go to the beach with the family. So I went the next day and have a test scheduled for this coming up Wednesday. Please pray for me. They have an idea of what may be going on, but I'm praying they are wrong. I don't want to go into details right now, but please be praying for me. The test isn't anything too major and I'm not really worried about the testing, but more about the results. I do know that even if it is what they suspect, it can be dealt with, it just won't be fun.

I'll get to the soul searching in another post. It's a long one in and of itself. Just pray for discernment as I seek God's will for my life.

Meanwhile, we have been picking berries and enjoying any sunny days we get here as this will be our last Alaskan least for a few years.

I do plan on being back more often now and will make my next post very soon.